We took our 6 children to the lake this weekend. This is something we do every summer but it was the first time back in the water this year. For the smaller children, this meant finding their confidence again. They were excited to jump in, they were just a little concerned about going out to far.
I was holding on to my 6 year old who actually loves the water. I was loosely holding on to her as she was swimming pretty well. She realized I wasn’t holding on completely and she panicked and started going under. I grabbed her right up and she was fine. The next time, she was making sure I had a hold of her.
I smiled as I watched this scenario happen several more times with the children as they became acclimated to the water. It reminded me of how I am when I lose focus in life. I find confidence in my faith and I am able to move forward with whatever obstacles are ahead of me. When life starts getting busier and I allow it to drown out my time spent on my relationship with God, I find myself starting to go under.
“So do not fear, for I am with you; do not be dismayed, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you; I will uphold you with my righteous right hand.”~ Isaiah 41:10
Our heavenly father holds us up to. He is there ready to catch us and help us from going under. Sometimes we lack confidence because we can’t feel him. Sometimes we just need reassurance that he is holding on to us.
Like my children had faith in me to keep my hand on them, I too can have faith that God has his hand on me. I can swim out further and deeper and find joy in unknown waters.
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ,
Johnna
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Monday, June 17, 2013
Friday, May 10, 2013
To my children, what I want for mother's day
To My Children, What I want for Mother's day,
I want you to carry love in your hearts always… real love, true love, love for God. The kind of love that allows you to give love and receive love.
I want you to know with confidence that you are beautiful without anyone having to tell you that you are.
I want you to hear the wisdom that guides you. The wisdom of those that have gone ahead, and the wisdom that whispers to your soul.
I want you to feel life. The breath that has awakened your spirit to encompass this beautiful journey.
I want you to see beauty, real beauty. The twinkle of a billion stars found in the eyes of a beautiful person. The rustling wind found in the gasp of a newborn baby’s breath.
I want you to taste the success of the impossible being made deliciously possible through Jesus Christ.
I want you to understand how blessed I am for being able to hold a baby, comfort a child, discipline a teenager, invest in a future, and pray over another person like I have done for you.
Somewhere in the scheme of things, God’s grace and mercy was sufficient enough to pick me to be your mom/guardian/teacher/minister/family. I could have never on my own qualified to be that person for you. What I want the most for Mother’s day, is for you to know there is no greater gift on this earth I could receive. I want you to know your worth and that you ARE the perfect gift from God and I am eternally grateful for you.
For this child I prayed; and the LORD hath given me my petition which I asked of him: 1 Samuel 1:27
With All My Love,
Mom
Tuesday, April 23, 2013
On my Knees...
When I first found myself in a recovery support program called Alanon, I had an amazing sponsor. She would lead me through steps and guide me through exercises that would be helpful to me. I was listening, to most of it. I wasn’t seeing much change. I would be okay for a minute and then would go right back to that pattern of insanity, trying to fix everything on my own willpower.
One day, I was frustrated and called her complaining. Nothing seemed to be working and I was ready to hide in a closet. She asked me, “Are you praying on your knees like I told you to?” The answer was, ‘I am praying, exhausted and worn out, layed out on my bed”. That was not the answer she was looking for. I wasn’t praying submitted to God, I was praying submitted to my body that was completely finished with the day and ready for sleep.
In reflecting on this time in my life, I realize I had been saying my prayers so I could go to sleep. For many years in fact, that was the routine. Get ready for bed, and then say my prayers so I could go to sleep. Oh what I have learned in the last couple years. Starting with, prayers aren’t just so we can go to sleep. In fact, that isn’t what they are for at all.
For this cause I bow my knees unto the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, Of whom the whole family in heaven and earth is named, That he would grant you, according to the riches of his glory, to be strengthened with might by his Spirit in the inner man; That Christ may dwell in your hearts by faith; that ye, being rooted and grounded in love, May be able to comprehend with all saints what is the breadth, and length, and depth, and height; And to know the love of Christ, which passeth knowledge, that ye might be filled with all the fulness of God. Ephesians 3:14-19 KJV
This is what prayer, on our knees is for and what it does for us. I would encourage you to learn, pray and meditate over this scripture. Then practice it!
Something amazing began to happen as I became intentional about praying on my knees every morning and every night. I started with praying for the new day and God to guide my thoughts and actions and end every day, thanking God for helping me make it through. Very quickly, I found myself on my knees by my bed more than just every morning and every night. I would get frustrated with my husband or my kids and I would go tell God about it. “Lord, what is with THEM”. I would get back up, and something would be changed, but it wasn’t THEM, it was me!! I felt like a new person facing a new day, every time!!! All of a sudden, my frustrations and worries and overwhelming responsibilities began to shrink. I had learned to effectively hand everything, including myself, over to God. When I did this, He was then able to work in me.
The first 3 steps of any 12 step program can be summarized liked this;
Step 1. I can’t
Step 2. God Can
Step 3. I will let Him
I hope by sharing some experience, strength, and hope that I have been able to help you like my sponsor helped me. I pray for you to find the strength to get on your knees, submit it all to God and let Him begin to do that wonderous work in you that only HE can do!!!
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ,
Johnna
Thursday, April 4, 2013
LeaveFingerprintsMinistry.com
I am excited to announce our website is up and running! You can visit it at http://www.leavefingerprintsministry.com/ So super excited to have everything together in once place and links to all of our networks. Thank you to everyone that has followed and subscribed and liked us on facebook! Can't wait to see what the next step will be!
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ,
Johnna
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ,
Johnna
Tuesday, April 2, 2013
The keys to obedience
A story was passed on to me recently. The summary of the story was that when God requires something to be done, even the devil must obey Him.
This was a very strong statement and one that has really made me think. In the story of Job, when satan is taking possessions and family from Job and testing his faith, God lays it out. He determines to what degree Job can be tested and requires that Job’s life not be taken. Satan obeys God and only does what he is allowed to do.
At this point I began to question exactly why God allows what He does and it was in this moment that I remembered, God put us here for His glory. He, like those of us that choose to be parents, chose to create us. He wants to love us and finds joy in watching us grow. This growth isn’t just physical, God delights in watching our spiritual growth. He wants us to grow towards him so we can return home someday.
Then why, one might ask, would God allow his children to be tested? Since the fall of man, that was a choice we have made, in our own disobedience. God has tried to tell us all along what was best, but we haven’t listened. When God’s chosen people had judges, while the other lands had kings, people threw a fit. They wanted kings too. This wasn’t best but God allowed it. We want free will and then we want to ask God why it didn’t work out.
I imagine this is similar to a parent giving their child the keys to the car. We don’t want our kids to break the law, we sure wouldn’t want them doing something so dangerous as drinking and driving, but we really do have to let them drive. We do want them to be happy and we want them to grow so we set rules, pray they followed them, and hand over the keys. God, our father, operates the same way. He hands us the keys with a set of rules and then hopes that we follow them so we can safely grow and be happy.
These are random thoughts that were jumbling up until I felt the need to write them down. Seriously though, do you understand the responsibility you have been given? God has trusted us with precious keys and He wants us to make it home safely. Are you following the rules or are you setting yourself up for temptation and harm? Obedience in this world brings comfort for now, but one day, it will determine if we make it home.
A grateful believer in Jesus Christ
Johnna
This was a very strong statement and one that has really made me think. In the story of Job, when satan is taking possessions and family from Job and testing his faith, God lays it out. He determines to what degree Job can be tested and requires that Job’s life not be taken. Satan obeys God and only does what he is allowed to do.
At this point I began to question exactly why God allows what He does and it was in this moment that I remembered, God put us here for His glory. He, like those of us that choose to be parents, chose to create us. He wants to love us and finds joy in watching us grow. This growth isn’t just physical, God delights in watching our spiritual growth. He wants us to grow towards him so we can return home someday.
Then why, one might ask, would God allow his children to be tested? Since the fall of man, that was a choice we have made, in our own disobedience. God has tried to tell us all along what was best, but we haven’t listened. When God’s chosen people had judges, while the other lands had kings, people threw a fit. They wanted kings too. This wasn’t best but God allowed it. We want free will and then we want to ask God why it didn’t work out.
I imagine this is similar to a parent giving their child the keys to the car. We don’t want our kids to break the law, we sure wouldn’t want them doing something so dangerous as drinking and driving, but we really do have to let them drive. We do want them to be happy and we want them to grow so we set rules, pray they followed them, and hand over the keys. God, our father, operates the same way. He hands us the keys with a set of rules and then hopes that we follow them so we can safely grow and be happy.
These are random thoughts that were jumbling up until I felt the need to write them down. Seriously though, do you understand the responsibility you have been given? God has trusted us with precious keys and He wants us to make it home safely. Are you following the rules or are you setting yourself up for temptation and harm? Obedience in this world brings comfort for now, but one day, it will determine if we make it home.
A grateful believer in Jesus Christ
Johnna
Thursday, March 28, 2013
Blessings and testings...
I have to say, for having a large family to provide for, we are blessed to live fairly comfortable. By comfortable, I mean our bills are paid and we don't have to worry about our needs if we are responsible with our money. I have to admit, I am not always the most responsible.
With Easter coming up and so many extra's to purchase, I was getting a little concerned this week. I prayed a lot, knowing God always provides. This morning I woke up financially worried. I had to turn it over to God several times . Outside was the most beautiful sunrise and I was in awe of how amazing God is, I knew all would be okay.
As I walked in my front door, my phone went off. It was my husband telling me a bonus check had come in. He normally gets these every couple months but this one was unexpected and a complete surprise. I knew and he knew it was an answered prayer.
About an hour later, I was wandering around a thrift store. It's one of my favorite things to do. I found a wallet that had tons of pockets in it. My wallet doesn't ever seem to have enough slots for all the cards and stuff I need it to hold. I was trying to decide if I wanted to buy this wallet and was looking through it when I came across money. The Lord had certainly blessed me this morning, now He was letting me be tested.
I have been through enough in my life that I know how serious it is for me to be obedient to what I believe to be right. I knew it was right to turn this money in. I sent my husband a message and of course he responded with a gentle encouragement that the right thing was to turn the money in and then told me I should buy the wallet for myself. So that is what I did.
As I was back in my vehicle I began to question, why do I have to always be so obedient? I wish I could not be obedient sometimes but my naughtiness is normally limited to sneaking to get ice cream while my kids are in school (and while I am on a diet).
"This book of the law shall not depart out of thy mouth; but thou shalt meditate therein day and night, that thou mayest observe to do according to all that is written therein: for then thou shalt make thy way prosperous, and then thou shalt have good success." Joshue 1:8
It suddenly dawned on me, how quickly I had become ungrateful. So many prayers and blessing were received this morning. This amount of money wasn't significant compared to my husband's bonus. Why was I even letting this be an issue. Why had I so easily forgotten the blessings?
I am grateful for today. I have been blessed and tested, and fed in more ways than one.
"For the word of the LORD is right and true; he is faithful in all he does." Psalms 33:4
**The management did let me know the money was going to their charity fund for the youth which is what they do with money that is found in donated items.
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Thursday, March 14, 2013
I am ready!
I was
walking in the park with my daughters and I asked if they wanted to walk around
the other side of the park and across the bridge that went over the small pond.
My 8 year old said, ”Not the big bridge, it scares me!” She then ran up to my
side and said, “first I have to hold my momma’s hand and then I can”. She
grabbed my hand and exclaimed, “I am ready now!”
One of the many
things being worked on in my life is the time I spend with God, especially in
the morning. I had begun praying at the end of the day for God’s will and
purpose in my life and his direction. Then I would wake up the next morning and
I would start getting ready and move on with my day, never stopping to ask for
the one thing I was praying for, His direction. I was convicted! I began
praying in the mornings, first thing, and overtime this has grown into getting
up a little earlier and even reading the bible. (This time change has thrown me
off again on exactly how early I am getting up so I am back to working on that.)
A scripture that
I found one day as my very thoughts were all over the place and I was wondering
why I felt so scatterbrained was Matthew 12:30:
“He that is not with me is against me; and
he that gathereth not with me scattereth abroad."
As my daughter grabbed my hand today, all of this came to the forefront.
Like children that, with all of their trust, grab their parents hand for
guidance and reassurance, we have to grab our Heavenly father’s hand. We have
to gather with him first, and then we are ready!
If you haven’t been doing so, I urge you to grow into meeting with God
every morning. This is an intentional action that will become habit over time.
Pray, read your bible, talk to Him, whatever it takes to face your day. You
will know you are being changed when your heart begins to exclaim, “I am ready.”
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ,
Johnna
Thursday, March 7, 2013
Gaming Skills
I have
recently discovered a puzzle game. It is pretty popular right now. You have to
match 3 or more pieces of candy to get them to disappear off the board. There
are different goals as you advance in levels in the game. I have noticed that
while I am playing this game, if I don’t see a match for a minute or I have
stopped to look up, 3 matching pieces will start flashing. This is the games
way of helping me out by pointing me in the next right move.
I had to
smile as I was thinking about this yesterday. It’s amazing how sometimes the
silliest things come to me. I was thinking, how cool is it that when I be
still, the right next move comes along. Not just a little either, it is
flashing across the entire board and can’t be missed.
There is a
scripture that teaches us to be still, it is one of my favorite…
“Be still, and know that I am God: I
will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.” Psalms
46:10 KJV
In life,
when we take the time to “be still”, God will often provide answers for us, and
they will flash! We will KNOW it is God.
A Grateful
Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
How far away are we...
I had a pastor when I was a young girl that explained reading the bible to me. He told me that we wouldn't always understand all of it, but we weren't called to understand, just to read. God would bring us understanding in His time. I can remember being 9 years old and my head spinning from all the "begats".
I say that to say this... I can and do understand the bible but what I want to share today is kind of a realization between the lines. Meaning, this is not necessarily a biblically authorative led blog post.
I finished 2 Chronicles this morning. In chapters 33 and 34, we are introduced to King Amon who takes the throne at 22 and reigns for 2 years. He isn't a righteous king so his servants kill him and his son Josiah becomes king at the age of 8. Josiah is a righteous king and reigns for 31 years.
Now, this part stood out to me and in fact stopped me in the middle of reading. This 24 year old man has an 8 year old son. Meaning he was 15 or 16 when he conceived this child. He then went on to disobey God and lost his life early. Out of this, came a good child, an 8 year old king.
As a mom of 6, I am amazed and appalled here. I spent all day yesterday, trying to get my 8 year old to clean-her-room. I admit I have not perfectly raised perfectly obedient kids. I tried every trick in the book, she wasn't cleaning her room. Now this 8 year old boy, whose daddy was naughty as naughty kings could be, was a good kid that was capable of being a good king. HUH, HOW, WHAT?
So I wonder, how far away from God and obedience are we in today's society. I am thinking really, really, really far. I am appalled.
I also realize that I do try to be the best parent I can be and I am a messy sinner and I mess up this parenting thing a lot. So how did this 8 year old boy make a good king? I heard a saying once. It is , God doesn't expect us to be the perfect parent, He expects us to point our children to Him in everything we do. When I am a good parent, my kids see me pray, when I am a bad parent, my kids see me pray. This amazed me.
The truth and the picture in this is that it isn't about us. We are used to carry out God's will. I have read from 1 Samuel through to 2 Chronicles (The Kingdom Era). For every bad king, there was a good one as well and I can't find any specific order that good and bad kings came.
For if ye turn again unto the Lord, your brethren and your children shall find compassion before them that lead them captive, so that they shall come again into this land: for the Lord your God is gracious and merciful, and will not turn away his face from you, if ye return unto him. 2 Chronicles 30:9 KJV
The fingerprints left... take it all to God, teach it all of God. Regardless of how far away today's society is, God wants us to seek Him and He wants us to teach our children to seek Him. Are you taking the time to turn it over and seek God?
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
I say that to say this... I can and do understand the bible but what I want to share today is kind of a realization between the lines. Meaning, this is not necessarily a biblically authorative led blog post.
I finished 2 Chronicles this morning. In chapters 33 and 34, we are introduced to King Amon who takes the throne at 22 and reigns for 2 years. He isn't a righteous king so his servants kill him and his son Josiah becomes king at the age of 8. Josiah is a righteous king and reigns for 31 years.
Now, this part stood out to me and in fact stopped me in the middle of reading. This 24 year old man has an 8 year old son. Meaning he was 15 or 16 when he conceived this child. He then went on to disobey God and lost his life early. Out of this, came a good child, an 8 year old king.
As a mom of 6, I am amazed and appalled here. I spent all day yesterday, trying to get my 8 year old to clean-her-room. I admit I have not perfectly raised perfectly obedient kids. I tried every trick in the book, she wasn't cleaning her room. Now this 8 year old boy, whose daddy was naughty as naughty kings could be, was a good kid that was capable of being a good king. HUH, HOW, WHAT?
So I wonder, how far away from God and obedience are we in today's society. I am thinking really, really, really far. I am appalled.
I also realize that I do try to be the best parent I can be and I am a messy sinner and I mess up this parenting thing a lot. So how did this 8 year old boy make a good king? I heard a saying once. It is , God doesn't expect us to be the perfect parent, He expects us to point our children to Him in everything we do. When I am a good parent, my kids see me pray, when I am a bad parent, my kids see me pray. This amazed me.
The truth and the picture in this is that it isn't about us. We are used to carry out God's will. I have read from 1 Samuel through to 2 Chronicles (The Kingdom Era). For every bad king, there was a good one as well and I can't find any specific order that good and bad kings came.
For if ye turn again unto the Lord, your brethren and your children shall find compassion before them that lead them captive, so that they shall come again into this land: for the Lord your God is gracious and merciful, and will not turn away his face from you, if ye return unto him. 2 Chronicles 30:9 KJV
The fingerprints left... take it all to God, teach it all of God. Regardless of how far away today's society is, God wants us to seek Him and He wants us to teach our children to seek Him. Are you taking the time to turn it over and seek God?
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Saturday, February 23, 2013
Growing wishes...
Recently, My husband was outside with all of our children playing in the yard. Our 6 year old pointed a dandelion out to her dad and said, "Look dad, we're growing wishes". Oh how much this moment shows to us a childlike perspective. Full of excitement and purpose, she was ecstatic over a simple dandelion in the yard.
How can that leave fingerprints on us? The verse that comes to mind for me...
And the Lord said, “If you had faith like a grain of mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘Be uprooted and planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you. Luke 17:6
Just like our 6 year old excited about "growing wishes", we can be that excited about growing faith. A mustard seed is oh so tiny. It just takes that small amount on our part and God will grow it and then we can plant it anywhere and every where we go. Like the dandelion that spreads and grows as children are blowing it's seeds into the wind, so can our faith and ultimately, the good news of the gospel be spread and grown.
Are you growing in faith and spreading the good news? Are you leaving fingerpints?
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
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Wednesday, February 20, 2013
The cures...
Spent the morning studying the beatitudes in Matthew 5. I think they are the cure for the abominations that start in Proverbs 6:16.
I say that because in Recovery, we are taught not just to look at the character defect but also the opposite, the asset. To let God work in us and on us in removing our defects by intentionally practicing the opposite of our habits.
The Beatitudes are a roadmap of virtues for us to intentionally practice. They don't just help heal character defects, they prepares us for the kingdom of heaven.
It amazes me how much recovery is biblical but I think the analogy of recovery helps bring the biblical into a lost world.
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
I say that because in Recovery, we are taught not just to look at the character defect but also the opposite, the asset. To let God work in us and on us in removing our defects by intentionally practicing the opposite of our habits.
The Beatitudes are a roadmap of virtues for us to intentionally practice. They don't just help heal character defects, they prepares us for the kingdom of heaven.
It amazes me how much recovery is biblical but I think the analogy of recovery helps bring the biblical into a lost world.
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Tuesday, February 19, 2013
Songs of Praise
One of my favorite ways to worship is through music. It’s
unfortunate that I can’t sing. Actually
I guess I could but not many other people would be interested in hearing the
distorted sounds that come out. I am absolutely thrilled that God gave that
gift to at least one of my children.
My 9 year old daughter Amanda has a heart for singing. I
didn’t just say voice or ability to remember lyrics even though she has both of
those gifts as well. She really has the heart for singing. I catch her with her
eyes closed singing a worship song and I see my daughter communicating with
God. I am awestruck watching her in these moments.
Last December, Amanda was invited to sing at church for Christmas
eve service. She was so excited and nervous. We were all so happy for her. She
was concerned about remembering the lyrics as it was a song new to her. She
practiced several times at home and at
church and was able to get somewhat comfortable.
Christmas eve came and it was time. Amanda stood up in front
of the congregation looking scared but determined. The music came on and she
began singing. Then it happened. Amanda was thrown off a little and she
panicked and she broke down crying on stage. My heart was instantly shattered
for my daughter. The music minister stood beside her, prayed with her on stage
until she calmed down and helped her continue. She did great, she overcame a
mistake and finished and her voice was beautiful.
I have to get honest. I think every adult present was
humiliated FOR her. We all wanted to take that pain, that hurt, that moment and protect her from
it. To see a child stumble is so difficult. Any one of us would have done anything
to make that better for her. At least that
is what most of us saw and felt.
Later that evening as our family was gathered in our kitchen
preparing for bed, we stood in a circle and took turns telling what we were
grateful for. Amanda’s turn came and she grinned and she said, “I am grateful I
got to sing for my Lord tonight”.
Oh come, let us sing to the Lord; let
us make a joyful noise to the rock of our salvation! Let us come into his
presence with thanksgiving; let us make a joyful noise to him with songs of
praise! Psalms 95:1-2 ESV
I was instantly convicted in so many ways. I saw my daughter
stumble in front of people. I saw her break down crying. I thought it was
kind of weird how she did finish and that was that. She didn’t seem to have
many after effects of the mistakes that we all felt. I understood why she wasn't upset for long when Amanda
spoke her words of gratitude. Amanda wasn’t just singing to
perform for the people. In fact, that was probably the last thing she was
singing for. Amanda was singing for her Lord. That was her heart and that is
why God gave her this gift. I learned from my daughter this day, as did many
others. She didn’t make a mistake, she did what she set out to do, she used her
gift for God’s glory and in return he used that experience to grow her and the people
around her.
I share this because it was put on my heart after reading
about song in my bible tonight. This blog is about how we can leave fingerprints.
That goes both ways. Sometimes, fingerprints get left in our life by others. I
am grateful for my kids and all they teach me. God uses them in so many ways
and I am amazed and blessed. When did
someone leave fingerprints in your life? Are you taking the time to pay
attention and learn?
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Sunday, February 17, 2013
To "those" people from "us" people..
I have several family members that struggle with addictions to drugs and alcohol. These struggles often result in people passing judgement and acting with prejudice towards our family. As someone that has never touched a drug and can count on my hands the number of times I have drank, this causes me great frustration.
I want "those" people that look at "us" people to know a few things:
1. Our family struggles, they are not what defines our family. Our reaction to our struggles define our family.
2. It's a family struggle. One family member that isn't sober minded will affect the rest of the family and their thoughts and actions.
3. We didn't choose this struggle, it's a disease that requires something outside of ourselves to cure.
4. Recovery becomes a way of life because without it, we wouldn't have life.
5. Those of us that have found recovery, are grateful for our struggle. It's gives us a spirituality that only comes from living a hell that few understand.
6. We do believe in God just as much as you do and consider ourselves God's children. The grace present through our struggles has left no doubt of God. He is real and He is good.
7. We kind of feel sorry for you. Everyone has hurts, habits, and hangups but not everyone gets the freedom that comes from recovery.
8. Celebrate Recovery can help you too.
In the past, recovery programs have been more aimed at specific groups. Celebrate Recovery has opened up the world of recovery to include everyone. It's a program for Men, Women and children struggling with anything. I recently took a chip for my weight, and have taken them for my marriage, control issues, resentment, handing things over to God, a call to ministry, and the list is endless.
For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. (Romans 7:18 ESV)
If you are reading this and are facing ANY struggle or if you are just curious, I invite you to find a Celebrate Recovery near you.
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
I want "those" people that look at "us" people to know a few things:
1. Our family struggles, they are not what defines our family. Our reaction to our struggles define our family.
2. It's a family struggle. One family member that isn't sober minded will affect the rest of the family and their thoughts and actions.
3. We didn't choose this struggle, it's a disease that requires something outside of ourselves to cure.
4. Recovery becomes a way of life because without it, we wouldn't have life.
5. Those of us that have found recovery, are grateful for our struggle. It's gives us a spirituality that only comes from living a hell that few understand.
6. We do believe in God just as much as you do and consider ourselves God's children. The grace present through our struggles has left no doubt of God. He is real and He is good.
7. We kind of feel sorry for you. Everyone has hurts, habits, and hangups but not everyone gets the freedom that comes from recovery.
8. Celebrate Recovery can help you too.
In the past, recovery programs have been more aimed at specific groups. Celebrate Recovery has opened up the world of recovery to include everyone. It's a program for Men, Women and children struggling with anything. I recently took a chip for my weight, and have taken them for my marriage, control issues, resentment, handing things over to God, a call to ministry, and the list is endless.
For I know that nothing good dwells in me, that is, in my flesh. For I have the desire to do what is right, but not the ability to carry it out. (Romans 7:18 ESV)
If you are reading this and are facing ANY struggle or if you are just curious, I invite you to find a Celebrate Recovery near you.
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Friday, February 15, 2013
When Recovery works..
In recovery we learn what is called the thee C's. They are a formula for dealing with the actions and habits of others. They are, I didn't Cause it, I can't Control it, and I can't Cure it.
There has been conflict in my life lately with people that are not in recovery. This conflict has been ongoing and without resolution for awhile. It all kind of came to a head this week.
I spent quite a bit of time looking at both sides of the street, trying to make sense of it. After seeking counseling from a minister, I understand I have done all I can on my side of the street. Not everyone has the ability to look at themselves when in conflict, especially if they haven't had recovery to teach them.
My instincts want me to resort to old behavior and try and force others to see things my way. What I have remembered is the 3 C's.
I have a peace in my heart. I know conflict isn't about winning or being right, it's about learning. This lesson has taught me to set healthier boundaries. I also have to stop people pleasing which is exactly what put me in the position to be manipulated.
One more thing I am understanding, sometimes other peoples trials and tribulations affect us. When conflict arises with people that aren't very experienced in the area in which they are working, they have to learn. They have to grow and stretch just like I do. I am sure God is teaching everyone involved. I can't take on other people's trials, I have to get out of God's way. I have to face my trials and grow from them. This is Recovery working.
for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure. (Philippians 2:13 ESV)
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~ Johnna
There has been conflict in my life lately with people that are not in recovery. This conflict has been ongoing and without resolution for awhile. It all kind of came to a head this week.
I spent quite a bit of time looking at both sides of the street, trying to make sense of it. After seeking counseling from a minister, I understand I have done all I can on my side of the street. Not everyone has the ability to look at themselves when in conflict, especially if they haven't had recovery to teach them.
My instincts want me to resort to old behavior and try and force others to see things my way. What I have remembered is the 3 C's.
I have a peace in my heart. I know conflict isn't about winning or being right, it's about learning. This lesson has taught me to set healthier boundaries. I also have to stop people pleasing which is exactly what put me in the position to be manipulated.
One more thing I am understanding, sometimes other peoples trials and tribulations affect us. When conflict arises with people that aren't very experienced in the area in which they are working, they have to learn. They have to grow and stretch just like I do. I am sure God is teaching everyone involved. I can't take on other people's trials, I have to get out of God's way. I have to face my trials and grow from them. This is Recovery working.
for it is God who works in you, both to will and to work for his good pleasure. (Philippians 2:13 ESV)
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~ Johnna
Saturday, February 9, 2013
Realizations...
Brokeness removes the pieces of dysfunction with which we have been molded. After the tears have dried and the hurt eases, we become aware of the spiritual perfection that has been hidden in the darkness. With this enlightenment, we have passed the feeling of pain and entered the comfort of peace in which God has rewarded us for our faithfulness. Not because our tribulations are over, but because we know their purpose. The intention of life isn't to find happiness, it's to find holiness.
A Grateful believer In Jesus Christ
~Johnna
A Grateful believer In Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Wednesday, February 6, 2013
She's a Christian!!
Out of our 6 kids, three have been saved. As parents, we have explained salvation to them, what it means to be a Christian and held their hands as they have prayed the sinner prayer.
Bring in our daughter Kamryn, who is special needs. She has always been a very very spiritual child. She is my
little evangelist and tells everyone about Jesus. However, because of her special needs, she hasn't been through the process of being "saved". I have carefully explained to her before but she would just get this confused look. She understood praying and she loves to sing every prayer she says. She is in love with Jesus but the process... I had to pray over that. Would her learning capacity allow her to understand?
Today, Kamryn comes in my bedroom, lays directly on top of me and tells me she is going to miss me when I die. I told her I hoped I didn't die for a while. She said "you will die someday and so will I and we will meet each other in heaven, but I'm not a Christian mom". I told her that being a Christian means having Jesus in our heart. She said "mom, I have Jesus in my heart but I'm not a Christian and I need to be a Christian" Kamryn had gone from joyful to sad, upset, and insistent. I felt that her declaration of Jesus being in heart was probably proof of what I had expected, God got a hold of her a long time ago. She was adamant that something was missing, so I explained.
I told her that Christians say a prayer in which we ask Jesus to forgive us of our sins, come into our heart and help us live like him. As soon as those words were out of my mouth, Kamryn started praying a very quick but very important prayer. When she was done she asked if she was a Christian now. I told her yes, and she jumped up and started shouting "I'm a Christian, I'm a Christian". She ran all through the house. As her daddy walked in the door she jumped in his arms and said "I'm a Christian, I'm a Christian and when I die, I'm going up to heaven and staring DOWN at the devil". Her dad hugged as we laughed and cried with her. Her sisters were all giggling as they explained to her that they were now sisters in Christ.
As I was talking to my husband about how I have always been kind of concerned how this moment would happen for Kamryn, I told him, it really is that simple. He added "and that exciting" as Kamryn is still dancing and twirling through the house shouting "I'm a Christian".
But when Jesus saw it, he was indignant and said to them, "Let the children come to me; do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of God. Truly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it." And he took them in his arms and blessed them, laying his hands on them. (Mark 10:14-16 ESV)
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Bring in our daughter Kamryn, who is special needs. She has always been a very very spiritual child. She is my
little evangelist and tells everyone about Jesus. However, because of her special needs, she hasn't been through the process of being "saved". I have carefully explained to her before but she would just get this confused look. She understood praying and she loves to sing every prayer she says. She is in love with Jesus but the process... I had to pray over that. Would her learning capacity allow her to understand?
Today, Kamryn comes in my bedroom, lays directly on top of me and tells me she is going to miss me when I die. I told her I hoped I didn't die for a while. She said "you will die someday and so will I and we will meet each other in heaven, but I'm not a Christian mom". I told her that being a Christian means having Jesus in our heart. She said "mom, I have Jesus in my heart but I'm not a Christian and I need to be a Christian" Kamryn had gone from joyful to sad, upset, and insistent. I felt that her declaration of Jesus being in heart was probably proof of what I had expected, God got a hold of her a long time ago. She was adamant that something was missing, so I explained.
I told her that Christians say a prayer in which we ask Jesus to forgive us of our sins, come into our heart and help us live like him. As soon as those words were out of my mouth, Kamryn started praying a very quick but very important prayer. When she was done she asked if she was a Christian now. I told her yes, and she jumped up and started shouting "I'm a Christian, I'm a Christian". She ran all through the house. As her daddy walked in the door she jumped in his arms and said "I'm a Christian, I'm a Christian and when I die, I'm going up to heaven and staring DOWN at the devil". Her dad hugged as we laughed and cried with her. Her sisters were all giggling as they explained to her that they were now sisters in Christ.
As I was talking to my husband about how I have always been kind of concerned how this moment would happen for Kamryn, I told him, it really is that simple. He added "and that exciting" as Kamryn is still dancing and twirling through the house shouting "I'm a Christian".
But when Jesus saw it, he was indignant and said to them, "Let the children come to me; do not hinder them, for to such belongs the kingdom of God. Truly, I say to you, whoever does not receive the kingdom of God like a child shall not enter it." And he took them in his arms and blessed them, laying his hands on them. (Mark 10:14-16 ESV)
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
Monday, February 4, 2013
Baby Veronica Facts vs. Emotions
Can an emotional manipulation of facts really trump the best interest of a child?
In today's society, many tools are available at just a click of whatever device one may be using to access Internet. We can launch a nationwide boycott from a phone or stir up the emotions of thousands by telling our perspective of a story to gain support. This is exactly what has happened in the case of Veronica Brown.
Veronica is the biological daughter of Dusten Brown. She was relinquished by her mother for adoption at birth. Her father and her tribe, the Cherokee nation were not given the opportunity to appropriately intervene until Veronica was already in another state and in the custody of the couple wanting to adopt her.
Fortunately for Veronica and her family, she is protected by a federal law known as the Indian Child Welfare Act. Passed in 1978, this act ensures that native American children remain with their biological families whenever possible.
In an interview, Veronica's biological mother, Christinna Maldonado stated she cut contact off from the father while she was pregnant in an attempt to test him.
Dusten Brown intervened and asserted his rights as Veronica's father. He filed in the State of Oklahoma by the time Veronica was 4 months old, well within his legal time limit. He found out, days before being deployed, that his daughter was living with strangers over 1000 miles away. The legal battle was on.
According to Oklahoma records, Dusten was able to prove paternity but the counsel for the couple made the decision to fight Dusten's rights and requested jurisdiction be moved to South Carolina since that was currently where Veronica resided.
The good news is that even in South Carolina, Dusten was able to win the right to his daughter but the appeals were endless and dragged out by the couple that were intent on keeping his daughter.
At the age of 27months, with appeals exhausted, Veronica was finally able to go home to her dad, big sister, and grandmother. You would think this was the happily ever after but it was really the beginning of a nightmare.
The couple had a friend that ran a marketing firm. Dubbed by the media as their "spokeswoman", a Facebook page was started along with a website and twitter account. Fundraising efforts to raise money for the couple's legal counsel ensued.
From bracelet's to Veronica Rose perfume, all imaginable marketing angles were covered. What resulted where thousands of supporters for the couple that heard about this sweet little 27 month girl that was "taken" from the only home she had ever known. Angry supporters often referred to Dusten as the "sperm donor" on the Facebook page that claimed they needed to "save" her from her dad. Death threats and kidnapping threats came in from all over the United States. Supporters of Dusten and Veronica, including myself, received hate filled emails that went so far as to suggest we should kill ourselves. A brick with the initials of the facebook page (SVR) was thrown threw the window of the big sisters bedroom. The media had successfully kidnapped the emotions of people nationwide. Dusten was viewed as a horrible person rather than the loving dad that just wanted his daughter home.
The national organization that supports and educates in ICWA, the National Indian Child Welfare Association, put together a document that asserted the facts verses what the couple and marketing efforts put out there.
The problem is the emotions that had already been evoked. It seems everyone has a stake in this case. From adoption agencies to foster care agencies to father rights advocates. The fight was fought all the way to the Supreme Court of the United States who is expected to hear oral arguments in April 2013.
In the meantime, the media fight continues with both sides very adamant that they are right. While some child advocates may have valid examples where ICWA could work better, so can cases be seen where ICWA did it's job. In the ruling from South Carolina's Supreme Court, it is very clear that Veronica should have never made it out of the State of Oklahoma. Several procedures and laws were not efficiently adhered too, including that fact that a native American child can not legally be relinquished and removed until they are 10 days old. This didn't happen for Veronica .
I can understand a couple's desire for a child, I can understand the frustration at facing so many obstacles to adopt and as a former foster parent, I can understand the loss of returning a child. Should any of those emotions be able to outweigh and decide the best interest of the child? How hard would it have been to directly contact Dusten BEFORE making plans to be in the delivery room with Bio mom at the birth? We can't skip steps in an adoption attempt and then launch a nationwide emotional outburst that can be detrimental to the childs well being, or can we? Already stabilized in her home, will Veronica really be removed from her dad or will the Supreme Court be able to see past the emotion that has clouded the judgement of thousands that fell in love with a little girl whose picture was plastered everywhere?
As a Christian, I just have to pray for God's will and everyone involved to somehow find comfort and peace.
*all content is my Opinion and any facts can be searched through court records or at NICWA.org where several fact checks for this case
are available
In today's society, many tools are available at just a click of whatever device one may be using to access Internet. We can launch a nationwide boycott from a phone or stir up the emotions of thousands by telling our perspective of a story to gain support. This is exactly what has happened in the case of Veronica Brown.
Veronica is the biological daughter of Dusten Brown. She was relinquished by her mother for adoption at birth. Her father and her tribe, the Cherokee nation were not given the opportunity to appropriately intervene until Veronica was already in another state and in the custody of the couple wanting to adopt her.
Fortunately for Veronica and her family, she is protected by a federal law known as the Indian Child Welfare Act. Passed in 1978, this act ensures that native American children remain with their biological families whenever possible.
In an interview, Veronica's biological mother, Christinna Maldonado stated she cut contact off from the father while she was pregnant in an attempt to test him.
Dusten Brown intervened and asserted his rights as Veronica's father. He filed in the State of Oklahoma by the time Veronica was 4 months old, well within his legal time limit. He found out, days before being deployed, that his daughter was living with strangers over 1000 miles away. The legal battle was on.
According to Oklahoma records, Dusten was able to prove paternity but the counsel for the couple made the decision to fight Dusten's rights and requested jurisdiction be moved to South Carolina since that was currently where Veronica resided.
The good news is that even in South Carolina, Dusten was able to win the right to his daughter but the appeals were endless and dragged out by the couple that were intent on keeping his daughter.
At the age of 27months, with appeals exhausted, Veronica was finally able to go home to her dad, big sister, and grandmother. You would think this was the happily ever after but it was really the beginning of a nightmare.
The couple had a friend that ran a marketing firm. Dubbed by the media as their "spokeswoman", a Facebook page was started along with a website and twitter account. Fundraising efforts to raise money for the couple's legal counsel ensued.
From bracelet's to Veronica Rose perfume, all imaginable marketing angles were covered. What resulted where thousands of supporters for the couple that heard about this sweet little 27 month girl that was "taken" from the only home she had ever known. Angry supporters often referred to Dusten as the "sperm donor" on the Facebook page that claimed they needed to "save" her from her dad. Death threats and kidnapping threats came in from all over the United States. Supporters of Dusten and Veronica, including myself, received hate filled emails that went so far as to suggest we should kill ourselves. A brick with the initials of the facebook page (SVR) was thrown threw the window of the big sisters bedroom. The media had successfully kidnapped the emotions of people nationwide. Dusten was viewed as a horrible person rather than the loving dad that just wanted his daughter home.
The national organization that supports and educates in ICWA, the National Indian Child Welfare Association, put together a document that asserted the facts verses what the couple and marketing efforts put out there.
The problem is the emotions that had already been evoked. It seems everyone has a stake in this case. From adoption agencies to foster care agencies to father rights advocates. The fight was fought all the way to the Supreme Court of the United States who is expected to hear oral arguments in April 2013.
In the meantime, the media fight continues with both sides very adamant that they are right. While some child advocates may have valid examples where ICWA could work better, so can cases be seen where ICWA did it's job. In the ruling from South Carolina's Supreme Court, it is very clear that Veronica should have never made it out of the State of Oklahoma. Several procedures and laws were not efficiently adhered too, including that fact that a native American child can not legally be relinquished and removed until they are 10 days old. This didn't happen for Veronica .
I can understand a couple's desire for a child, I can understand the frustration at facing so many obstacles to adopt and as a former foster parent, I can understand the loss of returning a child. Should any of those emotions be able to outweigh and decide the best interest of the child? How hard would it have been to directly contact Dusten BEFORE making plans to be in the delivery room with Bio mom at the birth? We can't skip steps in an adoption attempt and then launch a nationwide emotional outburst that can be detrimental to the childs well being, or can we? Already stabilized in her home, will Veronica really be removed from her dad or will the Supreme Court be able to see past the emotion that has clouded the judgement of thousands that fell in love with a little girl whose picture was plastered everywhere?
As a Christian, I just have to pray for God's will and everyone involved to somehow find comfort and peace.
*all content is my Opinion and any facts can be searched through court records or at NICWA.org where several fact checks for this case
are available
Sunday, February 3, 2013
Relaxing through the process
When I was a young teenager, I was in and out of the hospital quite often. After about two years, they finally discovered it was my gallbladder. During those years, I endured many procedures. Some of those procedures are the kind that cause adults to be scared. I also had my blood drawn many times. I learned fairly quickly if I would relax and go with it, all would be over quickly and the pain was minimal. I knew if I fought the nurses or tensed up, I would be in more pain. If you have ever had a needle stick in your arm, you know the more tense you are or the more you move, the more likely there would be bruising, swelling, or even a vein would blow.
I am older now but I am always very cooperative at the doctor and I intentionally remain calm so that I can minimize any pain I might have. This was a practice I was able to use while giving birth to my children as well.
I feel emotionally chaotic quite often. I have a ton of things on my plate and I start trying to take control of it all instead of letting it come to me a step at a time. Today, I had planned to get up, make breakfast for my family, get dressed for church and off we would go. My husband ended up being quite sick and the two little ones were coughing. The crud has been going around and knowing we couldn't go to church and spread our germs, we decided we needed to stay home. As I walked in the little girls room, I was overwhelmed with the mess. There were playing cards and clothes from one end to another. I told them to clean and as I went to sit down and calm down, I realized how chaotic I had become. I was breathing and praying and trying to regain composure.
It dawned on me, I was fighting what was happening this day. It hasn't gone as I have planned but my plans shouldn't be what determine my peace. I realized and learned something I pray sticks in my heart. Just as I have learned to relax physically at the doctors office, I have to relax spiritually and emotionally. God is the healer over all of me and while there are "procedures" that He has to work in my life, if I will relax and let God do what He needs to do, the frustration and pain will be less. Fighting God
will make things way more difficult and painful. My will and my way is NOT best. I have to take my day as it comes and let the rest go. God is in control.
After I was able to stop fighting this day and I could reflect on what was going on, well I spent the next 30 minutes with this message on my heart before I gave in to sit down and share it. It's a message I am grateful and I hope it is a stepping stone in my journey so they I can feel less chaotic and I can grow with less pain.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord , and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones. (Proverbs 3:5-8 ESV)
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
I am older now but I am always very cooperative at the doctor and I intentionally remain calm so that I can minimize any pain I might have. This was a practice I was able to use while giving birth to my children as well.
I feel emotionally chaotic quite often. I have a ton of things on my plate and I start trying to take control of it all instead of letting it come to me a step at a time. Today, I had planned to get up, make breakfast for my family, get dressed for church and off we would go. My husband ended up being quite sick and the two little ones were coughing. The crud has been going around and knowing we couldn't go to church and spread our germs, we decided we needed to stay home. As I walked in the little girls room, I was overwhelmed with the mess. There were playing cards and clothes from one end to another. I told them to clean and as I went to sit down and calm down, I realized how chaotic I had become. I was breathing and praying and trying to regain composure.
It dawned on me, I was fighting what was happening this day. It hasn't gone as I have planned but my plans shouldn't be what determine my peace. I realized and learned something I pray sticks in my heart. Just as I have learned to relax physically at the doctors office, I have to relax spiritually and emotionally. God is the healer over all of me and while there are "procedures" that He has to work in my life, if I will relax and let God do what He needs to do, the frustration and pain will be less. Fighting God
will make things way more difficult and painful. My will and my way is NOT best. I have to take my day as it comes and let the rest go. God is in control.
After I was able to stop fighting this day and I could reflect on what was going on, well I spent the next 30 minutes with this message on my heart before I gave in to sit down and share it. It's a message I am grateful and I hope it is a stepping stone in my journey so they I can feel less chaotic and I can grow with less pain.
Trust in the Lord with all your heart, and do not lean on your own understanding. In all your ways acknowledge him, and he will make straight your paths. Be not wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord , and turn away from evil. It will be healing to your flesh and refreshment to your bones. (Proverbs 3:5-8 ESV)
A Grateful Believer in Jesus Christ
~Johnna
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